Haven't you ever thought about how real is your life? or at what point what seemed real is nothing more that just your mind wanting to make it feel real? haha i guess the best way to let this out is writing about it, it's so hard to talk about this with someone! especially when you dont want to ruin or question someone's happiness or hopes =p
lately i've been thinking about feelings... what if feelings aren't really all that deep stuff about the heart and the chosen one and the sparks? what if it's just another trick? i mean, our mind plays a lot of dirty tricks on us and we barely notice, wouldn't be the first time! assuming this is true, then the real question is: how can i control my mind and feel whatever i want to feel? all that dramatic situations of "i cant get him/her out of my head", "i dont want him/her anymore" and "i wish i could love you the way you deserve it" would be over! it would be amazing =p although a little preditable and maybe even boring, but certainly a lot easier! we could decide how do we want to react to any situation, who to love, who to miss, who to let go!
on the other hand, the sad part is that all the magic and disney stories we were told long time ago would mean nothing. I know it's quite stupid, but it's nice to believe there's something further, some kind of surprise or magic or that something that makes life exciting! It's like wanting to choose whether to be boring, realistic and practical or being impractical, drama queen (sort of) and silly. That's the dilemma =p
lately i've been thinking about feelings... what if feelings aren't really all that deep stuff about the heart and the chosen one and the sparks? what if it's just another trick? i mean, our mind plays a lot of dirty tricks on us and we barely notice, wouldn't be the first time! assuming this is true, then the real question is: how can i control my mind and feel whatever i want to feel? all that dramatic situations of "i cant get him/her out of my head", "i dont want him/her anymore" and "i wish i could love you the way you deserve it" would be over! it would be amazing =p although a little preditable and maybe even boring, but certainly a lot easier! we could decide how do we want to react to any situation, who to love, who to miss, who to let go!
on the other hand, the sad part is that all the magic and disney stories we were told long time ago would mean nothing. I know it's quite stupid, but it's nice to believe there's something further, some kind of surprise or magic or that something that makes life exciting! It's like wanting to choose whether to be boring, realistic and practical or being impractical, drama queen (sort of) and silly. That's the dilemma =p
I think we talked about this a while ago, and well, I still fell it needs to go both ways :) a little bit of a practical choice, but if it doesn't make you go a little bit silly, then it's probably not real...
ResponderEliminarI kind of wonder what you decided to go for tough.