happy ending

right now i'm less than inspired =p but today some guy made me think about love (specially when valentine's day is so close) and i found really cheesy to talk about this with someone... so i think the best option is to make a blog entry =p

firstly, i'm confused about the so often called happy ending (in the couple-love way)... does it refer to a long term or short term dream? i guess it depends on every person's perspective... but for me it's a long term thing, i don't understand how people can be in a relationship with a partner who they barely stand just to avoid feeling alone =S perhaps i'm obsessed with "perfection" (such an ambiguous term)... i do really think people get to know each other in a relationship to study compatibility (as well as to obtain all the other benefits that are expected in a normal friendship). someone once told me that a boy/girlfriend is nothing else than a very very special friend, but a friend in the end.

i haven't decided whether it's a flaw or not, but i think the only way i can really give everything in my power to make a relationship work is if the guy is like THE guy =s so unconvenient...
in fact, talking about THE guy, maybe i'm just paranoid but i think when you are really into someone your behavior changes (not just with him but with everyone) into the behavior you feel he will like the most, or even worse! in a behavior more similar to his! (unconsciously of course). i think i start shaping myself, the way i talk to him, to way i act around him, the way i have to pretend i don't care, the way i talk to other ppl about him... all of this without knowing what i'm doing or why =p it's annoying, it's like i'm living in a fairy tale i created for me.

i've lost the point of this post =p it's just i've been thinking about this lately and i still don't seem to know how to express this i have inside... one thing i do know deep down is that without real friends to hear, stand, support and try to understand me my life would be such a mess =p

"But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."